An Ethel Among Mermans (thornwolf) wrote in healthandfitfur,
An Ethel Among Mermans

Needing Help

I saw some of my friends belonged to this community and figured why the heck not?

I'm Thorn, and I've experienced some rapid weight gain over the last couple months and it seems that it's only getting worse.

I was living on my own for awhile and working from home and kind of being a hermit for awhile and oddly I think this is where a lot of my recent weight gain happened. I was already heavier than I wanted to be, at 132 lbs (I'm 4'11", I've been a stable 105 lbs for years, but I'd be happy at 115-120), but then I moved and I didn't have everyday access to a scale and it wasn't until when I went to the doctor a couple of months ago I realized I had ballooned up to 156 lbs! On my small frame this is just..terrible. I had to buy 'fat clothes' and ended up crying in the dressing room wondering how I let myself get this bad.

I'm only 23 and I weigh as much as my mom did when she was in her 40's and I'm smaller than her. Clothes don't fit right and above all, I worry about my health.

With my dad's recent stroke I figured that was a wakeup call to start taking better care of myself. Before that I've eliminated fast food out of my diet, have been drinking milk and water, no sodas save for the occasional rum and coke (generally the only time I'll drink a soda), and have been more active in my "hikes" at school and also around the lake where I live, though I could do a lot more. The problem is finding the right motivation. I'll go on this exercise regiment for a week and then peter out and go back to my lazy ways again.

I've recently plateaued at 140-142 and don't know what else I can do to keep the weight loss moving. Yesterday I went to a chili cook off in my town and went up to 145 but hopefully that's just temporary weight. This is generally what my meals are like:

Breakfast: Bowl of cereal usually special K or Honey Bunches of Oats, roughly 160 calories
Lunch: Either no lunch or a 90 calorie granola bar
Dinner: Usually some kind of lean chicken dish, home cooked

I keep sweet intake low and if I have cookies I stick with the suggested serving size on the package, and this isn't an every day thing.

I think a lot of my problem is also beer. I've had more of a social life lately compared to my solitary days of being a hermit and when I'm social I drink. When I'm alone, I don't really. And beer is such a social beverage. I need to cut a lot of beer out of my diet but its so hard when everyone else is drinking a nice carbonated beverage and not only are you trying to avoid beer but the empty calories of soda, and water just doesn't cut it. I'll try to have orange juice to help but that's just pure sugar.

I also need to come up with some better exercises I can do at home rather than going to a gym because I live out in the middle of nowhere. Not to mention I am /horribly shy/.

Ideally I want to be 120. 120 is still a little heavier on my frame, but I'd be healthier. I think I've gained some muscle recently, which I can only hope for, but I still want to be able to wear size 5 jeans again. Right now I'm at an 8, possibly bigger.

I refuse to buy more 'fat clothes', because that's just giving in to the uncontrollable weight gain. On more than one occasion I've had to call in "fat" to work because my work clothes didn't fit. How embarrassing!

I hope this community helps keep me motivated. :3 Thanks all for listening!
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